The Hardest Decisions

Ok so this Blog entry is just going to be more of a journal entry, so please forgive me if i write in big long run on sentences and there are spelling errors everywhere. that's what happens when i am writing out my thoughts. So Matthew and i have been trying to make some big decisions lately and it's stressing me out. I have noticed in life that the hardest decisions to make are not the ones between good and bad, they are the ones between good and good.

We need to move out of his mom's house because we can't afford to pay the rent she is requiring. so. . . . .my parents have offered to let us move in with them basically rent free, they are working on getting new carpet in the basement and then we can move in. that's so generous and will help us out so much. . . . we plan to be out of debt by November and then at that point we were hoping to rent a home or something for a few months and maybe do a foster care program. save up money and then buy a home of our own. . . . but now we have been talking about. . . what's the point of moving in with my parents at all. we could still get out of debt living in a rental unit and get a foster child sooner than that, therefore get a home sooner than that! But that is such a huge committment and decision. I think it is a wonderful thing to do and i feel at peace about helping kids out who don't have a stable home. I just don't feel sure that right now is the right timing? maybe i'm just scared? i am having trouble distinguishing between fear and promptings from the spirit. :O I'm exhausted from being stressed out about money. Life is a contant battle and struggle. being an adult is really hard work. I'm barely adjusting to married life, that i can't imagine adjusting to being a mom even a foster mom. but then on the other hand i can't wait for us to have our own space. it has been exhausting living with parents and in laws. . . oh i just don't know what to do. so like i said the toughest decisions are the ones that are between 2 good decisions or even more than 2.
i hope we figure things out soon. if anyone has any advice on how to make decisions i'm game for input.
my plan until i get more advice, is. . .
- to write down the pros and cons of each decision.
- pray diligently
- go to the temple and listen
- talk with my husband a lot about it

so any other suggestions will be greatly appreciated :)
THANKS!